༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻ Special thanks to Angel of Mine Valencia Asia, Kerstin, Love Always Tami, Love Saffron♥Wings, Shirley Gohner and SSBJღ for all that they do! ༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻

༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻ 𝓜𝓪𝓷𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓴𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓵𝓮𝓯𝓽 𝓯𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓼!! 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭!! ༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻

꧁⁀ꀤ ꒒ꂦꃴꍟ ꌩꂦꀎ!! ⁀꧂

My family:
My Wonderful Hubby
My precious son
My Dad
My Mom
My brother - Timmy
My brother - Lynn

January 3, 2024
I'm having a hard time. I keep waking up without Joe Pete and thinking that he just got up early as he often did. Only to realize that he isn't here. It's hard to believe that he is really gone. I dreamed that he was coming through the door this morning to check on me. It was so real! I thought that he was here!! I wish that he was!
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My youngest son, Shawn, was shot in the head. I came home from work one day to find an ambulance there at my house and Shawn under a sheet in the living room. If I could survive that, I probably can survive my dear husband passing away. But it's very, very hard! And it's getting harder with the passage of time. Not easier!!

When Shawn died, I was younger and had Joe Pete. Now I don't. Prayers are that I will make it. I did order a head stone but it will take months. On October 19th, I got a flag and put it on the grave. It was just a cardinal! But that is some comfort! The headstone is going to take a long time! I wanted something there. The cemetery is particular about what they allow. They removed the silk flowers that I had paid $ 300.00 to get to put on the casket.

The headstone when it arrives will have vases so I can put silk flowers in and hopefully the people who work for the cemetery won't throw them in the trash. They have left the flag with my husband's picture in place. 8^)

Update on that. Someone broke the flag pole with the picture. I brought the flag home and have not decided if I will replace it. I mean, someone may just break the new one also.

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Saturday, August 5, 2023

My husband was coming home with hospice. The transport people told us that we were coming at 10, then 2, then 4 and then 6, They kept changing the time. I sat with my husband and niece all day. We played music for him. I even sang to him.8^) He only slept.

He never opened his eyes. Our son was in Blackstone at home all day for the hospice people.

I got up & went to the bathroom. My niece came to get me. Strange look on her face. As soon as I left the room and was not holding his hand, he passed away. That was probably a few minutes after 6:00 pm. I can not believe how fast he went down.

I thought that we had a little time. Sadly we didn't.
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Bad news! July 28, 2023. My husband's cancer has spread to his bones... We were at the emergency room for 9:00 hours on July 27. (Shawn's birthday) When we got home, we both took a nap. I then went to the pharmacy and got my husband's new medication. When I got home, my husband told me that the doctor's office had called and wanted to speak with me. I called and got the diagnosis. Bone cancer.
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My maiden name is Adams. My full name is Margaret Dale Adams Monahan. I was named after my aunt, Margaret Nell Adams.

When you lose someone that you love, your heart is broken and wounded. It's like a torn and tattered quilt. Sometimes you have to piece together what is remaining, and keep going . . . However, it is often very, very hard!

When Shawn died, I was having such a difficult time coping with the loss. The next year I got a dog, Lobo to help me to cope... I had Lobo for 14 years. He was a special dog but he died. I missed him so much. After a while, I got another dog, Django. He was a sweetheart also. But he got cancer and died at the age of 10. I was so distraught! But I got another dog, Teeko. Unfortunately, my precious Teeko died on June 20, 2023!! Absolutely loved that dog also!! I keep checking on him, only a second later to realize that he isn't here! However I have come to realize that each time one of my dogs die, it's like losing Shawn all over again. I can't get another dog! I can't go through that pain again and I am too old to get another dog... But they were all special!!

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Timeline of husband's problems with cancer:
My husband had surgery, radiation, chemotherapy and immunotherapy. When he came home from the surgery, he was on a feeding tube for a month.
Since June 29th, my husband wasn't able to have immunotherapy, due to elevated alkaline phosphatase. We traveled to the hospital over an hour and have blood test done. Then we are told that they can't do the infusion. Tests have been performed but the doctor hasn't found out exactly what is causing the problem. He has a MRI scheduled for Monday, July 24th. Then on Tuesday, July 25th, he had a bone scan. I hope that they will find out what is happening.

Wednesday the 26th of July, he had his esophagus stretched. He doesn't have an appetite, isn't eating much and continues to lose weight. The doctor is hoping that this will help.

Then he was diagnosed with bone cancer. He had very little time left... Sadly.

He was and is the Love of My Life! I am going on without him but it's hard, very, very hard! Almost impossible!!

I thank Jehovah God for all of my friends!! I need all of you!!
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We have had a tremendous amount of rain. When I went to the cemetery on Sunday (Jan 28, 2024), I found a hard hat sign on my husband's grave and lot's of water!! I called the town about the flooded grave on Jan 29, 2024. They said that there is a drainage problem that they can't do anything about. Really? I called the funeral director. He called the Monument people. They finally called me. They do have the stone. He was digging a foundation to put it in but there was so much water. Someone should have informed me about the sign. I posted the top of the headstone, although it's still at the Monument Place and I don't know when it will be installed.
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Recently someone here asked me to be their friend. What is a friend? True friends are usually those who offer you support, improve your quality of life, promote self-confidence, provide honesty and unconditional love, and help you progress mentally. It often takes time and effort to foster deep, healthy friendships. Most here are true friends that I dearly love. If you want a friend, you have to be a friend!!

༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻ Special thanks to Angel of Mine Valencia Asia, Kerstin, Love Always Tami, Love Saffron♥Wings, Shirley Gohner and SSBJღ for all that they do! ༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻

༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻ 𝓜𝓪𝓷𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓷𝓴𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓵𝓮𝓯𝓽 𝓯𝓵𝓸𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓼!! 𝓨𝓸𝓾 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭!! ༺✿ڰۣڿ✿༻

꧁⁀ꀤ ꒒ꂦꃴꍟ ꌩꂦꀎ!! ⁀꧂

My family:
My Wonderful Hubby
My precious son
My Dad
My Mom
My brother - Timmy
My brother - Lynn

January 3, 2024
I'm having a hard time. I keep waking up without Joe Pete and thinking that he just got up early as he often did. Only to realize that he isn't here. It's hard to believe that he is really gone. I dreamed that he was coming through the door this morning to check on me. It was so real! I thought that he was here!! I wish that he was!
----------------

My youngest son, Shawn, was shot in the head. I came home from work one day to find an ambulance there at my house and Shawn under a sheet in the living room. If I could survive that, I probably can survive my dear husband passing away. But it's very, very hard! And it's getting harder with the passage of time. Not easier!!

When Shawn died, I was younger and had Joe Pete. Now I don't. Prayers are that I will make it. I did order a head stone but it will take months. On October 19th, I got a flag and put it on the grave. It was just a cardinal! But that is some comfort! The headstone is going to take a long time! I wanted something there. The cemetery is particular about what they allow. They removed the silk flowers that I had paid $ 300.00 to get to put on the casket.

The headstone when it arrives will have vases so I can put silk flowers in and hopefully the people who work for the cemetery won't throw them in the trash. They have left the flag with my husband's picture in place. 8^)

Update on that. Someone broke the flag pole with the picture. I brought the flag home and have not decided if I will replace it. I mean, someone may just break the new one also.

----------------------------------------

Saturday, August 5, 2023

My husband was coming home with hospice. The transport people told us that we were coming at 10, then 2, then 4 and then 6, They kept changing the time. I sat with my husband and niece all day. We played music for him. I even sang to him.8^) He only slept.

He never opened his eyes. Our son was in Blackstone at home all day for the hospice people.

I got up & went to the bathroom. My niece came to get me. Strange look on her face. As soon as I left the room and was not holding his hand, he passed away. That was probably a few minutes after 6:00 pm. I can not believe how fast he went down.

I thought that we had a little time. Sadly we didn't.
--------------------------------------
Bad news! July 28, 2023. My husband's cancer has spread to his bones... We were at the emergency room for 9:00 hours on July 27. (Shawn's birthday) When we got home, we both took a nap. I then went to the pharmacy and got my husband's new medication. When I got home, my husband told me that the doctor's office had called and wanted to speak with me. I called and got the diagnosis. Bone cancer.
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My maiden name is Adams. My full name is Margaret Dale Adams Monahan. I was named after my aunt, Margaret Nell Adams.

When you lose someone that you love, your heart is broken and wounded. It's like a torn and tattered quilt. Sometimes you have to piece together what is remaining, and keep going . . . However, it is often very, very hard!

When Shawn died, I was having such a difficult time coping with the loss. The next year I got a dog, Lobo to help me to cope... I had Lobo for 14 years. He was a special dog but he died. I missed him so much. After a while, I got another dog, Django. He was a sweetheart also. But he got cancer and died at the age of 10. I was so distraught! But I got another dog, Teeko. Unfortunately, my precious Teeko died on June 20, 2023!! Absolutely loved that dog also!! I keep checking on him, only a second later to realize that he isn't here! However I have come to realize that each time one of my dogs die, it's like losing Shawn all over again. I can't get another dog! I can't go through that pain again and I am too old to get another dog... But they were all special!!

----------------------------------------
Timeline of husband's problems with cancer:
My husband had surgery, radiation, chemotherapy and immunotherapy. When he came home from the surgery, he was on a feeding tube for a month.
Since June 29th, my husband wasn't able to have immunotherapy, due to elevated alkaline phosphatase. We traveled to the hospital over an hour and have blood test done. Then we are told that they can't do the infusion. Tests have been performed but the doctor hasn't found out exactly what is causing the problem. He has a MRI scheduled for Monday, July 24th. Then on Tuesday, July 25th, he had a bone scan. I hope that they will find out what is happening.

Wednesday the 26th of July, he had his esophagus stretched. He doesn't have an appetite, isn't eating much and continues to lose weight. The doctor is hoping that this will help.

Then he was diagnosed with bone cancer. He had very little time left... Sadly.

He was and is the Love of My Life! I am going on without him but it's hard, very, very hard! Almost impossible!!

I thank Jehovah God for all of my friends!! I need all of you!!
------------------------------------------------
We have had a tremendous amount of rain. When I went to the cemetery on Sunday (Jan 28, 2024), I found a hard hat sign on my husband's grave and lot's of water!! I called the town about the flooded grave on Jan 29, 2024. They said that there is a drainage problem that they can't do anything about. Really? I called the funeral director. He called the Monument people. They finally called me. They do have the stone. He was digging a foundation to put it in but there was so much water. Someone should have informed me about the sign. I posted the top of the headstone, although it's still at the Monument Place and I don't know when it will be installed.
===============================
Recently someone here asked me to be their friend. What is a friend? True friends are usually those who offer you support, improve your quality of life, promote self-confidence, provide honesty and unconditional love, and help you progress mentally. It often takes time and effort to foster deep, healthy friendships. Most here are true friends that I dearly love. If you want a friend, you have to be a friend!!